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twitter is a poison
hey, sup? long time no see. Lately I got into twitter too much, like having addiction. morning wake up, I open twitter. in toilet, twitter. nothing to do, twitter. on the go, twitter. at night wanna sleep, nope, twitter first. I hate this kind of me. It makes me feel stupid, empty head, no life. I need another supplement for my brain.
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Hey ssup. Not a best week here. Had breakdowns here and there for 3 days. felt overwhelmed at work and just wanted to run break the door out and go far away not coming back. and I actually did it. I skipped work just for get out from that hell. I became a work paranoid. I keep feel unsafe and need to escape asap. People around looks like still unwelcomed me. Boss like doesn't know what to do with me neither do I. I need a medication, I don't have energy to do therapy.
today's
hey ssup? it's been a centuries huh? anyway, long short story, today I skipped work and not telling my 'new' boss. it was unplanned at all. I wake up early, took shower, ate breakfast, get dressed, put make up on... but I kept whispering and half yelling to my self that 'I don't wanna go to work!' I was struggling to get up on my feet and drag it to get out from my room, but I couldn't the thought that I'll be in the office doing nothing and absolutely nothing, not even to talk to the office mates makes me anxious , uncomfortable. I hate that. so, instead of that, I went to get lunch outside and get a cup of starbucks to add another lump of my anxiety. I had breakdown last week, and I think tonight I'll get another one. I just can't help this uneasy feeling. I don't understand Should I get help?
Down to Zero, again
Okay.
Here I am, just came back from my graduate school life and jobless.
No motivation and no passion.
who said graduates from a prestige campus like The University of Tokyo can get a job just like snapping your freaking fingers?
NOPE.
hm? working in Japan? sorry I'm not a kawaii blonde gaijin girl who can speak nihongo pera pera because I got my Japanese boyfriend backing me up.
anyway.
I have a new issue now.
I am in love (again) with Green day, and... Billie Joe Armstrong.
I am maybe already in the level of the obsessed fan toward him.
sigh, Why am I always attracted with the middle aged married man and has kids?
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