ikkittebayo

hey, sup?

long time no see.

Lately I got into twitter too much, like having addiction.

morning wake up, I open twitter.

in toilet, twitter.

nothing to do, twitter.

on the go, twitter.

at night wanna sleep, nope, twitter first.

I hate this kind of me.

It makes me feel stupid, empty head, no life.

I need another supplement for my brain.

Hey ssup.

Not a best week here. Had breakdowns here and there for 3 days. felt overwhelmed at work and just wanted to run break the door out and go far away not coming back. and I actually did it.

I skipped work just for get out from that hell.

I became a work paranoid. I keep feel unsafe and need to escape asap.

People around looks like still unwelcomed me. Boss like doesn't know what to do with me neither do I.

I need a medication, I don't have energy to do therapy.

hey ssup?

it's been a centuries huh?

anyway, long short story, today I skipped work and not telling my 'new' boss.

it was unplanned at all.

I wake up early, took shower, ate breakfast, get dressed, put make up on...

but I kept whispering and half yelling to my self that 'I don't wanna go to work!'

I was struggling to get up on my feet and drag it to get out from my room, but I couldn't

the thought that I'll be in the office doing nothing and absolutely nothing, not even to talk to the office mates makes me anxious , uncomfortable.

I hate that.

so, instead of that, I went to get lunch outside and get a cup of starbucks to add another lump of my anxiety.

I had breakdown last week, and I think tonight I'll get another one.

I just can't help this uneasy feeling. I don't understand

Should I get help?